There are many cases where the turn of a single fate degree can change our very own… fate.
It is almost invisible, humble, and hardly gains our attention. That, after all, is its role.
A turn of ourselves, especially in the past, 360 plus 1 degree, brings us to the present, renewed.
Able to seize the opportunity to change our lives for the better.
This opportunity does not come with drumbeats but instead forms a fantastic spiral, a symbol of evolution.
That is when we are ready to devour the fears that kept us away from all creation and progress.
Until we meet new fears, making the same turn of 360 plus 1 degree again.
The word “Angstbeiίer” in German means the one that bites fear. In a rather free translation.
A creation by Kargαist, founder and soul of the band, composer, and lyricist who also performs the duties of a singer.
However, the journey of the song, began a few years ago, in 2014 the lyrical part and a year later the melodic part.
It was at that time that they began to create a trilogy entitled “Abraxas“.
The song “Angstbeiίer” is also the most important of the band, because it completely changed their plans.
The creation of the trilogy from concept albums proved to be a very difficult case.
Not only because of the fact that the project itself is too ambitious, but mainly because of Kargαist’s creative emptiness.
“Everything was “stuck” and for this band, it took several years to release something new“.
The Progressive Black Metal structure of their songs is always adorned with poetry in German.
And this is the main motif of their songs.
Real poetry is not simple rhymes, it is the most accurate description of the creator’s own soul.
It is a direct connection to the inner self. Something that is never easy, as there are many interferences.
Recognizing the fear …
One of them, perhaps the biggest, is fear. The first step in eliminating it is to recognize it.
As Kargαist tells us, this was the biggest obstacle to awakening his creativity.
He had to deal with some of his personal feelings.
Such as the constant fear of loss, the obsession to control other people, and the inability to escape the roles he has set for himself.
All this led to uncontrollable aggression.
But anger is a cry of the soul and its statement that it still exists.
A situation that most people experience, but not being able to actually get angry.
And his own, as he tells us, light in this dark tunnel of emotions, was “the realization that all these problems are interconnected.”
This was his humble opportunity to change his life for the better. Humble, but very important!
So, he decided to dive deep into his past, reaching his childhood.
There he found that the main reason was the stereotypical roles in life, imposed on all of us.
And yes, that’s the main cause of misery, too, where pointless consumerism acts as a temporary painkiller.
Understanding this whole psychological state, re-led the composer on the path of creation.
He began to transfer with lyrics about his experience from this time journey to the depths of his past.
Thus, began the birth of the song “Angstbeiίer“.
A trademark song …
During that period, the band was considering releasing a demo album with songs by other bands.
Bands with which they had some contact and/or connection.
However, they thought it would be a better idea to include a song of their own.
So “by clicking on the poem” Angstbeiίer “, I began to compose the music“, Kargαist continues.
Such a release was intended to promote them, so they had to create a trademark song.
It had to have all the characteristics of the band’s music, such as:
Epic orchestras, choral vocals, Black Metal riffs, elements from Thrash, and some melodramatic solos.
All this had to fit in about 7 (!) Minutes.
The song was not intended to be part of a complete album, but to accompany the cover album.
Eventually, this plan was canceled, but without a creative gap and with a wonderful song in their luggage.
The recording of Jupiter
At the same time, Kargαist, along with his mental introspection, composed new songs.
The creative gap for the completion of “Abraxas” was just past and the feeling of relief accompanied every note and verse.
Over time he found that he had material ready for a complete album.
So, two years later they started recording “Jupiter“.
Proving that “Angstbeiίer” ended the musician’s creative crisis while contributing to the completion of an album.
The song had a new destination, to open their third album and as more attractive, it had to become a single.
Of course, something like that had to be accompanied by a video clip.
The video clip
The original idea for the video was for a friend of the band, a semi-professional dancer, to dance to it.
After that, a stream of ideas began …
And as Kargαist reveals to us “I began to create a story with many symbolisms for repressed emotions and dreams“.
All this had to be made into a short film and another friend of his, who is a director by profession, contributed to this.
The easiest way was to find the right place to shoot the video.
Near the composer’s house, there is a ruin of a medieval castle.
It was exactly what they were looking for! However, all good ideas always have some flaws.
And in this case, it was the night winter cold of central Europe.
For the script needs, everyone wore thin clothes.
And for the right result, the shooting lasted all night, finding everyone cold and tired.
To overcome the cold, they tried to warm themselves in front of the headlights, which probably had a small to non-existent effect.
Kargαist’s description says it all …
“The one who really suffered was the band’s guitarist.
He had the role of a pagan priest and had to hold a heart in his hands. A real heart. Still in the blood.
Of course, it was not human “, but of an unfortunate bull.
“I had kept it in the freezer for days, so it could be fresh during filming.
But due to the obsession to keep the bull’s heart fresh, he did not manage to thaw well “.
The result was that the guitarist, besides being frozen to the bone, had to hold a piece of ice all night!
The fact that he was able to play with his fingers again, is a very positive development of the shooting, along with the completion of the video.
Obviously next time they will know how to avoid some dark details of a … Bright idea.
That’s how the first journey of the song ended.
Although it started with pain and a cold heart, it ended with a warm heart and frozen hands …
So are the real, good trips, unpredictable, but with many fruits, such as inspiration and knowledge.